Can someone give me real advice on this?

You have a crush on him and it is okay. It's probably going to be hard for you being that he is in a different country but being that you think about him all the time and you are having dreams about him basically means that you have a crush on him. You're totally allowed to. I strongly believe in fate. I just want you to know that anything is a possibility. One day the two of you can meet, it can be in a week or in ten years, but in my heart I know that some relationships leave a mark on your heart and you will never forget them. I'm sorry that you're unable to see him. And if anyone calls you stupid, they are stupid. You're 13 years old and you do seem pretty mature. I just think you need to realize this might be a crush, even though you may be denying it because he is so far away. I really hope that you do meet him one day though!